2013 : A year gone by with a person gone by
In a couple of hours from now we're going to step
into a brand new year, waving goodbye to 2013.
This year I’m at home spending a quiet new year’s
eve (being to myself) while last year I was partying my heart out with my close
friends. Some insane dancing and crazy drinking! There was this optimism in the
air back then; a feeling that something nice is to happen…a feeling I’m missing
this year. Not even excited. Is this a bad thing? Ending the year on a sad
note?
2013
has been great for me. The year of freedom and happiness. The year of
liberation from my 3 years in self-exile. Travelled quite a lot and holidayed
in places like Andamans and Goa (twice!). Yeah by far it has been one of the most memorable years
to cherish. It had its ups and downs, but on the whole, it's one of the most happening
years for me (happiest and sad after a long time). Attempted to go to Canada
for studies AND failed in the endeavor! I was blessed with getting close to one
of the most amazing persons I will again meet in my life. As the year ran its course, I got more close to this person and I discovered how amazing
she is. Knowing our constraints, we had no name for our relationship (and we
used to laugh about that), friends maybe, two persons of similar nature maybe,
whatever it is, she is gone now into a new life and she has her obvious reasons.
We never had anything nor planned for the long run anyway but its those little
moments of love, affection and care which mattered. I loved what we had, the
moments we shared, platonic little things we did on a daily basis (it felt nice
being crazy again), the ‘kaashes’ (wishes), the honest talks…it’s all over now and
while a part of me wants to be practical about the whole thing, another part of
me just don't want to wake up from that beautiful dream. But honestly I want
her to be the happiest she can be. I think I sort of have a feeling why I don't
want to say good bye to the year 2013.
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| For the girl who once again brought upon me the exquisite torture of loving & letting go. She vanished as completely as an echo in the night |
I am not so apt to changes and with the year
ending, my qualms are obvious but then all good things come to an end, right? With
the year ending, things will change in a way that I really don't want it to
change…I feel so damn lonely (without your constant inquisitiveness) but this
is life and its harsh sometimes and punches you on the face..BOOM!
Anyways folks,
wishing you all a very Happy New Year. May you have a grand 2014!
Personally, I aim
to write-blog more this year (an advice given by someone also while departing!) and yes gotto finish my website..
Goodnight and Goodbye everyone, until the next time.
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| Running alone.. |
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