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STOP and THINK

By ANIRBAN CHATTERJIE

There are some incidents or moments in life which happens and the outcome or decision of which makes you stop and think. It may be over a decision you made or could be a behavior or over an action of yours leaving you pondering over whether whatever you have done is right? 
Have I done the right thing?
"I just acted tough with a Bank guy. I had given him a cheque for opening a FD and he failed the date commitment, due to which I stopped payment of the cheque".
He pleaded not to stop payment saying his job would be at stake, admitted to his mistakes and asked for a second chance?
But in my temper as usual, I did something I shouldn’t have done: I stopped payment inspite of his repeated pleas not to do so. 

We humans always look for our own interest before others. In this case when my interest was not met, I did to my capacity something I later wished I hadn't done cause after some time I started to feel bad over the whole issue. I didn't need to be so harsh, I thought. What if his job really goes because of my high handedness in dealing with his failed commitments? 
On the flipside, my left mind argued that in the consumerism driven corporate world why the fuck should I give a damn over his callousness?

But a strange feeling inside me pinched; a feeling of guilt was it? A feeling that something wasn’t right? Or I wasn’t right in this case.

I stopped and thought.
The only person I am liable to answer is myself and I was ill at ease with the way I treated him. My left mind fought back: ‘He is no one to me; just a bank executive and I shouldn’t care a fuck about him’ . . . but something just wasn’t right.

Didn’t wish to carry this guilty feeling further so after a bout of SHOULD I? or SHOULDN’T I?, simply dialed him and asked him to collect a fresh cheque this evening itslef. He was more than happy and came to my office, apologized once again. 

This time I apologized too.

Feeling better now...